Hyperadder

I think now is a good time to continue with the same thought I was ruminating on in the last post. I don't really care that much about dating, really. I came to a conclusion just now that I have less balance in my life now than I ever have, even though I've been pretty insistent (mostly to myself) that I do. All I want right now is more of everything; more music to play, more money to spend, more people around, more time to enjoy everything, and so on. There's a part of me that wonders why, considering the fact that as it is I'm feeling like there's less time than ever to make everything happen. How would I fit any more in? I guess that brings me to the next point, and it's really the last thought I have for the night: What is it that I am doing, and why is it making me so frustrated and so unsatisfied?

"I guess I have a lot of pondering to do."
-Derek Zoolander, ca 2001 / Me, ca 2007